Well well well I have to tell you something, last weekend was the most stressful 2 days I’ve ever had. I was invited to one of my friends 20th birthday party and a friend of hers who recently turned 19 years old, on Saturday night, I had not seen my friend in a while, I was so happy to see her again. I met her in high school before the end of our final year, we became rapidly very close and that’s how our relationship started.
On Friday night she invited me to her mom’s place to spend some time together before their birthday party (because I knew I wouldn’t have been able to see her much on Saturday), and we had a whale of a time. The night started by going to the function room, it was a pre-birthday party (there were only twelve people so nothing to worry about for me). We enjoyed ourselves on the dance floor, me first. It was 1 am when we came back to her place, we immediately went to sleep, we had a lot of things to prepare in the morning. I’m going to skip the cooking part and talk about the moment I arrived to the function room. It was still quite early, the guests arrived 2 hours after us and to be honest, I spent the all time alone, everyone was talking together and I was alone in a corner of the room I was looking for some things to do to kill the time. There were around forty young people and I only knew six or seven of them which is little.
I really thought for once I was going to talk to people (I did talked to my friends), but I didn’t even try, it was too hard for me, I felt powerless and my fear took over me. At dinner time, I was feeling so sad that I almost cried I thought I was going to leave the place, but hopefully I didn’t. I pretty much spent the night sitting on a chair.
I was supposed to stay for the night but I asked a friend if she could drive me back home which she nicely did. I also had to explain it to my friend, and she understood, she actually saw how lonely I was feeling.
I hate being introverted, it literally prevents me for doing EVERYTHING, I would love to be different, but I don’t think I can change that. The worst thing in that, some people don’t take me seriously, they say it is just a phase, that it will change and it pisses me off (excuse my bad language).
That’s all have to say. Next post will certainly be a Tanya Burr make-up look on her palettes (I bought the 3 palettes last week aha).